#1 Pragma: Stand in Love

When I was a child, I got it into my head that I was the reason for my parents’ love. That before me they existed rather plainly, without the most profound level of love between parent and child.

But now that I’m older, I can see just how backwards I had it. ‘Cause it’s not me who made their love, their love created me.

It’s a beautiful thing to watch this mature kind of love:

It’s the type of love that’s always there without having to announce itself;
The kind that doesn’t want to leave without a kiss goodbye;
The kind that chooses to sit next to each other even after all these years;
The kind that will still take the time to entertain each other.

This love did everything in its power to shield us from the misery of the world. It wasn’t about having plenty, it was about having enough. Enough warmth, protection, opportunities; enough comfort laughs, support and most of all enough love.

I love you, mum and dad. I pray for a love like yours.

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PS: Pragma – Ancient Greek for a mature type of love. This was the deep understanding that developed between long-married couples. (Source)

Hello 2017

So 2016 has come to an end, and 2017 is finally here. Whether that’s a good thing has yet to be determined. 2016 takes with it a lot of feelings, accomplishments, defeats and some regrets. A lot of feels, and I’m okay with that.

Now I must confess I have never been good at new year’s resolutions. I’ve tried and failed at the whole shebang. Even just coming up with something realistic to do that suits me and my personality (laziness) is a hassle.

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Positivity Challenge

I, personally, have struggled with depression in the past. And it’s not something that was easy to overcome, there’s no switch in your brain that can make you forget all the not-so-good feelings you have inside. Everyone’s battle is different, and winning the war takes a lot of time. But fortunately, I am in a better stage of my life now. Of course, it has its ups and downs but I’m smarter or wiser or healthier now, and I know how to handle the downs more or less.

But lately, I have been feeling the downs creeping in. With a mounting workload, you sometimes feel this paralysing fear.

“Where do I begin to tackle any of this?”

“I don’t know, honey.”

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Moving on, so to help me keep calm and carry on, I decided to challenge myself to think positively for 30 days. The aim is to share love, give thanks, and keep hope.

Arbitrary rules:

  1. Dedicate each day to one thing you are grateful for, or happy about
  2. 30 days overall not necessarily consecutively
  3. Keep it as positive as possible but keeping it real (minimal sugar coating)

 

I wrote this a while ago, and the stress of uni is now over, but I thought the intention is pretty nice. So I will try it anyway. Wish me good luck.

If you wanna try it too, go ahead. Enjoy!